Be positive

Hi there...

Yeah i know its been a long long time im not writing anything...but swear to god..i do really want to write something hahaa. okay forget that part...let just begin a new chapter here coz so many thing i want to share for my own history also and hopefully will be useful for anyone hahaa.

I will start with today, you know how i like to be in social relationship...and just for your information, now im active on 3 community and some movements for better Jepara off course ;)
Today im starting my day with a little discussion with my friends in our social community called Jepara Satu Buku, its a social movements actually...in collecting writing books and omg i forgot what it called in english for alat tulis haaha, so silly. So we collect all that from our donatur and distribute to all unlucky students specially elementary students across Jepara. And today we receive a very good news, tax government office would like to donate books to us and we 5are so glad to hear that. But some things that also concern us..its about they will give the books with their tax pics on the cover. For my personal opinions..i really dont mind as long as there are no birocration bring after it..know resposible letter or whatever...but once again we will never know until we meet Mr Endaryono himself and discuss with him. So we will sched it on Monday insha Allah.

So funny I end up like this over and over again

My first writing after almost a half year, so many things going on, including I met someone that makes me falling in love again. So wonderful feeling, He just an awesome young man, I just so amaze on him, in his activities and on his education background...i think its never enough if I talked about him. So We having this strange relationship hahahaa...why its strange coz, eventough we are in the same area, but we never meetup but until that day. It's kinda late... i will write down again tomorrow...

I missed you...

Its been a while now...since we said goodbye, I'm not saying that I'm sad or something, I just hate the feeling that I really miss someone like you. Someone to talk to, someone that really care about me...do I feel want to cry, I won't.
I know you are happy right now and I'm happy for you...swear to god. It just, I can't find a good friend like you... Someone who encourage me to be strong, someone who teach me a lot of things, someone who can boost my spirit...you are such a touchy person I ever met, we cried, we laughed, we fight and all. You are the best...I missed your voice...I missed your laugh... Ibrahim...I missed you...

Being honest....

Being such an honest person was so damn hard, sometimes we afraid if honestly can make a huge effect that might be, we never like it. But at least we trying to be honest to ourself about things. It such a great reliefs.. Just being honest.
Well sometimes I get so furious in a funny way when i meet someone who just so hard to tell things...I didnt know what he's thinking...when I get to curious about it, its just turn me to a bad person...hahaha oh my god..what happening to me. But I will let it go, let's the nature finds it way...if its for me it will come to me, who knows? So I always prepare for the bad situation, just in chase so I won't have this bad heartbreak.

Thats why i love you

Kinda klise words but this is the first time I felt it...well for now I guess.
So wonderful feeling...to have someone that support you just the way you are..and want you to be better and booster my mood with lovely words.
I remember how he said, why arent you want to learn more about something, I can teach you cause its very simple and I will guide you...hmmm, what a big words. Makes me realize..so I learn few stuff and makes my life easier. Thanks to him.. :)
So I hope he always around for lighten my life..and I know how tough life in his country I just want you to know...I will do exactly the same like you do to me..don't you worried ;)
I love you as my best best best friend and I never wish something more great than this..
Happy Monday for us all....

Bright morning...

Its been raining for 2 days..and finally there is a sun and do my laundry..hmm once again, Alhamdulillah.
When we do things from our heart and sincere to what we said, we will have back in return for it. Its always happen to me and I'm very thankful for everything even I don't know what should I do next month because I have to pay a lots of debts but more I think about it, makes me stress..hahha so I decided not to think..period. Just believe all my problem will solve.
I don't have any plans for today but I will go around to fresh me up a lil. And discuss works with partners...stuff that makes me busy. If not I will do things unusefull again n again..that was bad.
Okay...hope I will enjoy my day and keep do good things coz it makes me better.. I love to be me.

So great to have you around

Its just so funny how all started.., accidentally see your post and the next thing I did, was add your acc..lol.
But I know something happen for a reason and I'm so lucky to know n close to you for now.
You always said nice things bout me, and makes me so happy...coz I always believe its sincere and not like those guys with other intention behind it..how I know this...cause somehow I have the feeling that I'm right. I will write more about this later on...hahaha.
Today I just want to thank you..for having a nice talk on the phone, and just knowing what you did this whole day make me happy, weird tough but its what I felt for ya. And your voice, I love it when you said 'miss ya' keep smiling and keep asked you to repeat it again n again..thank you.
Being with you is wonderful..., even you're so far away... And I don't know if we will ever meet someday... It doesn't matter...doesn't matter at all.